Sometimes

Sometimes I need someone to understand or hear me out

Sometimes I thought you’re my closest friend yet sometimes you’re the person that hurt me the most 

Sometimes I always have the idea of giving up 

Sometimes I always wonder why am I fighting over all this 

Sometimes I wonder why do I put myself in such a hard position

Sometimes I hope you can feel the same as me 

Sometimes I felt upset more than happy with you 

Sometimes I don’t think things will work out 

Sometimes I hope I never met you 

Sometimes I wish things are easy 

Sometimes I hate myself 

I hope to get a shine of guidance , lead me what it seems to be the right path . Holding glass too hard will end up shattered the glass and hurt the hand. 

13.09.18

Back to this Blog,

I was wondering if anyone still reading this?

Confess

I have some few things to confess.

Recently I had been told by one of my friend about the table tennis tryouts happening in next Tuesdays which will be 2 days later.

It makes me hesitate so long about going for the tryouts. The follow are the reasons for my hesitation.

It always hold me back a little when table tennis is mentioned. I could say that I don't have any luck or faith in table tennis. Many times I had got disappointed when playing this sport. Thus, I don't have much confidence when there is a tryouts or any competition.

Moreover, due to some medical issues, I am unable to play table tennis for about a year. I haven't been playing it not to say playing any competition. Well, not having any proper trainning or competiton, will I be able to get a place in tryouts in BUSC games?

Looking after my timetable and stuffs, I might no be able to attend some competitions due to that there are not held in Cardiff. Competitions are at Wednesdays. My Wednesday classes finish at 1pm. If it starts at 3pm in other places where I need to take a 3 hour bus journey, impossible for me to go.

A friend of mine told me that some girls are quite good. It really break down much of my confidence.

Sorry for people who is reading this. Maybe it's hard for some people to understand how I feel. Anyway, thanks for spending time to read.

What I really need is confidence, but where can I find it?

Last Post about You

Literally, I was really kind of excited today as it is my father's birthday.
My mood kind of get ruined by the same thing over and over again.
It's not your fault.
It's just me I am clearly sure that's me.
I have written many emo posts about you and I thought that I had fully recovered.

It's been so long that you live yours and I live mine.
Till recently I met you back unexpectedly and glad that I don't feel the same as I am towards you.

But
My heart just don't feel right greeting you both.
I would rather wish someone sincerely but not putting on a mask to give a bright smile.

Please give me some time to let go and vowed this is the last post of me posting about emo stuffs of you.
My viewers will get bored, right?

I feel better right now in the end of this post :)

not as mad as just now

Follow my new blog in this link .
I am slowly switching most of my stuffs to that blog. 

and finally please don't ask me about this. It's my past and something that I don't like to talk about. Thank you :)

NEW BLOG

I thought of deleting this old blog of mine but I hesitated a little.

I could say this blog contains most of my young immature post or I could say my stupid young days in schools.

Anyway, I have also created a new blog.
This blog contains more about my travel experiences.
I hope to write them down so I can remember every moment that I have been.

Not sure how many of my old friends will actually see this post.
Hope you guys love my new blog!

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最近 总觉得自己像个变态

1。看了某位朋友的fb 让我没那么害怕上我的大学
她是我未来的学姐
看了他在当地的生活
我希望 一切顺利

2。后悔没有去当SUKMA 工作人员
毕竟我没去过 SUKMA 全国赛
感觉很壮观 不一样
 偶然间 看到一位女生的FB
她是马大毕业的牙医
也得到了INTERNATIONAL EMPIRE
突然燃烧起我想 去考一个牌会来
她环游全世界，认识各国球员
让我很羡慕 也佩服

加油吧！

Live

Probably that's the way I should live.

bye

Why should I care?

Why are you telling me those?

My heart breaks till million pieces ..

but I can't blame you because you don't know about it


Please let the time pass faster, please.

I wanted to leave
wanted to live without you

I know that's my faith
saying bye to you

记

今天去了医院

看到了一个布告板

冲忙行走的人， 往往都会忽略它

上面帖着癌症病人感谢卡

里面装满了病人们的话

不知道为什么 我觉得很温馨

提醒了我16日的父亲节

好像大声说 我爱你 爸

shit

The moment you thought you know

but actually it's just s piece of shit

新界面

原谅我的新界面

因为一些事的确让我感到不安

欣慰

欣慰你过得很好

The day

It's gonna be tuesday.

That frustrated me.

羡慕

你往往只会有羡慕的眼神、心情、梦

八独中

近期是学校假期
也是雪隆八独中

我相信曾是代表球员都有所感触

最近比赛的花絮一直涌往心头
如果继续在中华读先修联 可以参加八独中
继续发梦吧！

原来我那么怀念八独中
一起住宿舍
一起5点起来做体能
一起睡午觉
一起练球
一起吃杯面
一起检讨
一起哭
一起分享胜利

每场比赛往往都深深刻入脑子里
尤其是那些输了的比赛
好像对我留下阴影
哈哈！
不过也值得怀念

学弟学妹们一定要加油！
很抱歉 上星期没有出席你们的练习
现在 又无法到场为你们加油
非常抱歉

原来我曾参加了3年的雪隆八独中，2年的全国独（沙巴、太平）
好怀念啊

这是我从箱子里找到的八独中与全国独钟奖牌，
不知道其他收取那里了 ==

早睡

如果每晚很早躺在床上

但是 睡不着

那算早睡？

感

感恩 感谢

做美食

喜欢自己做美食的朋友们

分享以下的link

http://dodocook.com/

same

I have been listening to the same phrases all the time.

Looking at the similar expressions all the time.

Is it me or what I just don't like to talk about it

Perhaps I am a fail daughter, a fail grandaughter

How I wish I can be Sherlock

何时

何时名单上已经没有你的名字

何时会因为忙碌而把你隐藏在土里

何时抗拒知道你过得好不好

何时

从去年计划好的东西
最后因少了那份勇气，还是 被理智操控？

这几个月做的功课
最后会因为惋惜而留恋

很努力地学习一些东西
因为知道你会喜欢

因为知道你喜欢那个感觉

最后只能道一句 敷衍的话 告诉你

Like I care 会是你给我的答复