痛

读着读着书 突然想到 这个礼拜的事情 本来很期待 却因为你的自私而破坏了大家的心情 当初我还以为 是我们坏 那现在 我觉得 你更自私 说好答应的话 为什么反悔 你难道不知道 我脸臭的心情吗？ 说什么牺牲自己 我 呸！ 有时候我不知道要怎样面对 如果我可以自私一点

？

还是很难笑起来？
为什么？

STRESS？
接二连三的东西迎面而来

为什么总是只能保留在平均？
能重B去A，有可能吗？

我应该还抱着希望吗？

Results

Well, I though I was calm enough..
Eventually, it turned out to be worst.
Why do you want to tell me?
Why Why Why
I am enough of getting disappointed.
All my hard work, it just turn nothing.

I just want to be alone, not in the mood for everything.
I felt sorry for my mom for keep asking me things and I just ignored her.
I am sorry for lying,
I was afraid that I burst in tears.


Every time I work hard and put lots of effort
but in the end
it turn out to be nothing.
It's just few seconds I was like going to be in tears.


I don't know why are you telling me this stories.
and suddenly you was like motivating me,
telling me to believe myself
wishing me " jia you"
Somehow I felt that I am not as good as what you think.

I am tired.
Struggling how to strive for my best.
Sometimes I really felt that I had reached a limit.
Keep finding reasons for myself to continue.

I really felt sorry and guilty for everyone.
for giving me so high expectations.
my parents, teachers
Atar of 98 minimum？
BULLSHIT
How can I reach that high?

Tell me,
how can I be strong to continue?
how can I be tough?

Disappointment always strike me
especially looking at friends beside me did well or improved.
Why I just can be the one who caught people's envy's eyesight?

FRUSTRATED, DISAPPOINTING

朋友

我不知道为什么

自己傻傻的答应了

帮助你好象有莫名的兴奋

可能是有朋友要来我家了

兴奋？

删除了自己多久以来不舍得的

都无所谓吗？

我没感觉了真的

那些日子的回忆都删除了

没有备份

或许都留在心里了

要是没有你的到来
我还傻傻的留着，
那个不属于我的东西

我还记得临走前你说打乒乓
而你一再提醒我 他很忙了
噢，我真的忘了
傻傻的 看着你离开的背影
笑容依旧那么灿烂 

在乎

往往伤害自己的

都是最亲的朋友

往往在意的

都是最好的朋友

我们的聊天已变成习惯
行吗？

事实证明我还不够努力

NARUTO 和 SASUKE 的故事

你还记得吗？

about u

今天
我又拿整桶雪糕
拼命吃
好像失去理智那样

从你说我朋友的那一刻
就等于在说我
你不知道
我会和他们一样心痛

眼泪一直留
看不清键盘的abc
用了多少纸巾擦干了不能停滞的泪水

你不知道我有多爱他们
你不知道我今年流了多少泪水
你不知道我的心一再的被你画了多少刀

我很愿意的被你骂
我很愿意听你说完
我很愿意。。我都很愿意

我不想你再伤害我在乎的朋友
为什么要认识你？

我不明白你的无理取闹
我不明白你为什要让全世界知道
我不明白为什么你不能体谅
我不明白你为什么一定要拥有她
我不明白

到底还有剩多少日子
我才能够离开

我一再建立的高墙
就这样轻易的被你打垮

"No matter how, do not make a promise that you can't make it"

I told myself, never ever.

Semester Break

What could I say?

It doesn't sound like me.

Having my last physics test today
Everyone is going out but indeed I act like a nerd staying at home
I rejected 3 invitations, oh gosh!
This wasn't sound like me :x
I can bet that for the previous me I will damn get crazy and insists of going out.

Well,
It's nothing better than home.
Replacing insufficient sleep for those days

Especially yesterday and the night before yesterday,
I cant believe that I slept at 3am.
How kiasu I am? >.<

However, I do like the moment you motivated me :D
I can't continue withstand your proudness which motivated me to beat you one day.
Although I don't know when but I sincerely believe that there is a day.
DO WAIT FOR ME ;)
I can remember that I kept blaming you those days for making me crazy like hell
but in my heart I sincerely felt grateful to you
leading me to change to be more hard working
and most of all,
I finally found that I have a task to fight for.

You don't know how much you meant to me.
Till now, I am still shocked on how you help me.
Showing me the comparison of work,
encourage me to IMPROVE ;)
Oh, please, being a bit too kind?

I know that you both are the same kind of people,
making friends depends on their value.
"What is my value to you?"
" Am I the one for you to deserved to be treated good?"
"Why?"

"You are so real to me. You won't act or fake in front of us. You treat us with a true heart. We do not need another brain, we just need another ear and you are the ears of us!"

WOW!
I didn't notice that I am such...

I MISS YOU

YOU KNOW WHO I AM SAYING (:

Felt a bit lonely since you left.
Being strong and tough.
I really can totally understand your feelings.
Well , I could say you are 100 times stronger than me.

Such fragile I am,
don't know how many times I need to call you.
Can't I just stop depending on you?
The moment to choose to speak with you.
Maybe you are the one who understand me, understand the situation..
OH PLS YAN LING CHUNG
be strong !!!
There is a next semester for you to fight for!

Let's talk about SEMESTER EXAM
I don't know how to say.
I don't know what to say.
I think I had do my BEST.
All I hope is a good result!

I can totally understand the feeling you guys had
EMO after exam
If you really put a lot of effort, you really care what the results is.
In another words, RESULTS MEANT EVERYTHING.
I think that I had get influenced by you all.
In order to have good results, I need to sacrifice something,
something that doesn't sound like me
something that I hate when they sees me.

The first time feeling I had,
I had emo for sometime after knowing that I cant get full marks
which I can have the ability to get.
Because of my slow thinking brain, I do not have enough time to finish it ):
The moment the teacher announce " you still have 5 minutes"
I was like panic and can't think of a solution.
My hands are trembling, words are messy.

Well, I need to improve in my time management for the last 5 minutes.
Need to be clam.

OHHHH

HOLIDAYS STARTS (:

UNFORTUNATELY

I HAD A PEAK SCHEDULE

assignments, tutorial, desire 946 <3, cowboy, pp team, and others

I wanna met you all

The picture that I liked the most,
giving me the motivation to continue =)